Wow, I haven't updated in a week

Where have I been? I have started 3 or 4 posts but never finished them. I have been actively reading the blogs. And for some reason feeling very busy.

How am I busy when I am not working right now (I left my job when I moved and have not looked for a new job here because we don't know how long we will be here and who wants to hire a preggo pop?)?

I seem to waffle from extreme crazy movement (driving to my mom and then ken's mom and then my mom again while they were sick) to incredibly boring lulls.

Crazy-Highs: We have had lots of visitors. I have been spending days, nights, and weeks cleaning the house we are living in...my brothers have both lived in this house for the past 8 years and have left 8 years of crap and grime for me to clean up. I am working to get the house ready to sell when we leave. (yes, my parents are the best for letting us live here.) My parents are going through some non-fun things that involve ending up with pseudo custody of my dad's half brother's son (who is 11 years old and unfortunately has had quite a lot of bad things happen to him in 11 short years). My parents are/were textbook empty nesters. So this transition has been hard for them. I have been called in to pitch in, which I am happy to do.

Lulling-Lows: Throughout all of this going back and forth from Athens to Atlanta and cleaning and driving...I have long patches of waiting. Waiting for KW to stop studying for the bar each day...waiting to figure out where we are headed next...waiting for the pregnancy to make more progressions.

Yes, even the pregnancy seems to go through crazy times of Hurry-Up-and-Wait. The first trimester was not difficult compared to a lot, but it wasn't a lot of fun (read nausea) and this trimester has been great in comparison. I spent a lot of the first trimester and even second trimester feeling not really pregnant. Now, I feel great and definitely pregnant. And we have had some really great milestones: moving ultrasounds, good 20 week check up, getting a belly. I am getting the look of pregnancy and getting comfortable but then I start looking to the next stage.

I know I need to just enjoy this stage as I have it, but I'm so impatient!!!!

So this was a very disjointed and long post with too much packed in. This is the problem of not posting in a week. And a lot of it is vague because I shouldn't go into the details.

I hope to be back to my stupid regular posting now. With some new ultrasound pics and maternity clothes questions.

I'm just as bad as US Weekly ***new note

Look what I just found out!!!

My second favorite half of my favorite tv couple is engaged!!! Just like on TV!
WOOT WOOT!!!

I was just talking with my brothers this weekend about whether or not Jenna Fischer was also pregnant in real life (in case you didn't know, Pam is preggo!!!) I told them that I did not think so because I keep on top of these things. And they didn't write in Angela's pregnancy, so I don't think that they would have to do it. I mean, she is sitting behind the desk 80% of the time.

So what do you think? Is she pregnant in real life? Here I start bump watch all on my own!!!

btw. I just found out that this is the second marriage for Jenna. She was divorced in 2007. I don't know why this made me less happy about the news. But it did. I may be a bad person.

***I have worked out my feelings on why I this being a second marriage for "Pam" made me less happy, and it came to this: you always want the fairy tale ending for the characters you like and I didn't like the thought that Jenna married her Roy (or her Barry, if you are a Friends Fan). It is a bummer. Divorce is not fun, but I don't dislike Jenna for having to go through it...it just makes the story a little less perfect (but it is much more interesting, i'm sure--I mean the Office would have been one season long if she had ended up with Jim out right).

Maternity Clothes

Quick Question:
Where should I look for maternity clothes?

I am not a big fan of the goofy obvious maternity wear:

Loud colors, obnoxious prints, and bows oh lord the bows.

I have been wearing the empire shirts and maxi dresses from normal women's wear lately. But I haven't seen a lot of clothes that I like in maternity sections or stores (not that I have looked a ton).

Can anyone recommend some good stores (on-line or in-person)? What about key pieces? What could you not live without!?! I'm just trying to figure out ways to not waste money and to not look stupid. (Ha, it is an awesome mantra!)

Mom update

Mom called after her meeting with the oncologist. It doesn't seem to be cancer.
We are very excited.
She isn't sure what it is really...but they all said, it doesn't seem to be life threatening and are working on pain management until they can figure out how to prevent it.

Thanks for your prayers

OMG! I am having a Baby Freak out # 1

Up until today, I have been able to keep my OMG-I'M-HAVING-A-BABY fears in check. Maybe it is the hormones that have been blissing me out or not really feeling pregnant or having too much on my mind. But today in the grocery store (after being completely PMSy to Kdubs for 24 hours), it hit me...panic.

Walking through the baby aisle at Kroger (which I usually never do, but I got lost in a new Kroger and decided to chance it), I saw the diaper aisle and freaked:
SHOULD I CLOTH DIAPER THIS KID!?!?! WHAT IF I CAN'T?!?!?! HOLY HELL THIS IS GOING TO SUCK!!!!
***Kdubs and I have been talking about cloth diapering for awhile. I know, laugh all you want, I am not the most green person out there and that is not why I'm considering it. I'm considering it for 2 reasons: 1. Kdubs really wants me to try (he is bit more crunchy than me and says he will consider it garbage and take of it (see here for relevance--#95 and 96) and 2. people have said, "you can't/shouldn't do it" which is the best way to get me to try. So a lot of this fear is related to the people saying "you can't/shouldn't" being right.

Then I saw the baby food section and freaked:
UGH, SHOULD I MAKE MY OWN BABY FOOD..WHAT IF THAT IS HARD?!?!?...HOW DO YOU DO THAT??...DO I HAVE TO PEAL PEACHES? HOW DO YOU PEAL A PEACH!?!?!?

Then I saw the formula section and freaked:
THAT SHIZZ IS EXPENSIVE!!!! I HOPE I CAN BREAST FEED!!! WHAT IF I CAN"T!?!?! IT"S GONNA HURT AND I"M GOING TO PUSS OUT!!!

I think this all stems from the guilt I felt for drinking a diet coke at that moment. My doctor said one diet coke a day would not hurt anything but I hate that I have fallen back on the wagon. It just makes me so happy. UGHS!

Btw. my friend (okay she is more of a wife of a friend of my husband--but I went to her baby shower so we'll just say friends, right) became a new mom 3 days ago and I just found out she is having a not so awesome time with breast feeding. This is not helping my fears. This woman is awesome...she is a nurse in a infant surgery wing, so she is kick ass with babies. I mean I know that doesn't mean she is a master breast feeder but still! Speaking of her, I need to figure out a way to get her to be a real friend before this peanut comes out so I can utilize her new knowledge. She is one of the few prego people I really liked (while she was prego) because she is snarky and witty and even keeled....I MUST MAKE FRIENDS WITH HER???

Do you think calling her up (never talked to her on the phone before) 3 days after the birth of her child and bombarding her to be my friend is too much?

yeah, me too...
I'll try the gradual facebook communication...

19 weeks Preggo

I am at 19 weeks along this week
I am not really showing. I have definitely gained weight (blerghs, about 12-14 pounds of it). I also haven't been great about what I have been eating.
I mainly just look like I did before I lost the weight. I fit into most of my bigger clothes. They just get tight by the end of the day. I have lost most of my good curves and gained more (ahem, in my ass).
I used to roll my eyes at pregnant women who would complain about gaining weight, but it is disarming to see your weight (something that as a woman, you naturally watch) go up and up.
I know I am gaining weight in okay proportions, but I would like to stop looking fat and start looking pregnant.

*I picked out this outfit to wear for the rest of my progression pics. I stole this shirt from my youngest brother--love the Old School with the Big Wheel
Quick poll question: How do you control your weight gain when pregnant? You can't diet? Do you act somewhat like dieting? Do you work out more? Or do you just try and lose it afterward?

Doctors update

There are not a ton of OB practices in Athens, so I went around yesterday and called a few to get an appointment.
The one that came highly recommended to me (2 doctors and one midwife) could not see me until July 20th!!! That would be almost 8 weeks without a doctor's appointment, which for this crazy new mom-to-be seemed excessive.

So I called the second one on my list and was a little (okay, a LOT) disappointed about the receptionist I talked to. Our conversation went like this:

TRS: Hi, I'd like to make an appointment to see a doctor. I am new to the area and am 18 weeks pregnant.
Stupid Receptionist: When did you move to the area?
TRS: the last week
***5 minutes of chitchat about her being from the Midwest and the weather...in which i tell her about my doctor's office in Michigan and she lectures me about getting my records from my doctor's office to them ASAP***
SR: Oh, so when did you find out you were pregnant.
TRS: uhm...15 weeks ago?
SR: Well, let me see when we can fit in new pregnancy appointments...hmmm...
TRS: Well, I don't need to go through the new pregnancy appointments...I'm 18 weeks along.
SR: and you just found out, so this is your first doctor's appointment!
TRS: No, I have seen a doctor every month since I found out at week 3...
SR: well, we just don't take people this late for their first appointment
***In my head I was screaming: what?!? First I was a bad mom for not finding out that I was pregnant or going to the doctor until I was 18 weeks and now you won't give me one!?!?!

Needless to say, this lady was not inspiring much confidence in this practice.

After my appointment today with the OB coordinator, I feel much better about the practice.
She was awesome!!!
She talked to me about every aspect of the practice...how each appointment will go...what delivery registration should look like...insurance and payments...EVERY THING! I was very impressed. Now, I know that she is not my doctor, and I probably won't see her a lot from now on, but if the practice is half as good as her...I think I will be in good hands.

I have an appointment with an actual doctor next week and then will decide about canceling the appointment on the 20th.

What would you guys do? Keep the appointment? Is it tacky? Have you ever OB shopped? What was the most important thing to you about your OB/OB practice?

I'm not dead yet

yeah, I leave for more than a week and I come back with a quote from Monty Python. I am just that big of a geek.

To give you guys an update, I will do it in list form:

1.) KW got in late but safe.
2.) We had a great time hanging out in Michigan for a day and then driving back home.
3.) Being reunited with Penny was sweet and fun. She has been my buddy since.
4.) Remember back in Christmas when my mom was sick? Yeah, she is sick again. And they are not sure what is wrong and the doctors are doing a lot of tests.
5.) Also, my parents have pseudo adopted a cousin of mine, who is difficult and has a troubled past.
6.) This all means that I have been spending more time at home in Atlanta rather than with KW in Athens.
7.) I have also been away from a good computer connection...hence my absence from the blog.
8.) I have been trying to find a new doctor in Athens, and it has been difficult. One practice that I like can't see me till July 20 and the one I am not thrilled about can see me tomorrow...blerghs. What would you do?
9.) My brother left his Tivo in Athens with me...and I will never go without another one again!!!!

There is a ton more to say...I will try and parse some of it this next week. So, how are you?