Tuesday, August 10, 2010

One more year of my 20s

Tonight, I am in the capital of Slovakia, Bratislava, and am about to start the last year of my 20s. I have never been a person who dreads getting older. I have gray hairs (I call them Kdub hairs, since they magically appeared after I met him)...I have never had a lithe or perfect body...

But one thing has hit me, this eve of my last year of my 20s, pregnancy and childbirth have made me feel and look old!

My hair is crazy looking. Because I won't try and get my hair colored in German I have awful gray roots...I am suffering from the worst bout of baby bangs I have ever seen! and I got the worst haircut of all times before I left. Lets just say no coloring, straightening, conditioning or whatever will fix all that is going on here!

My body feels not like my own. I didn't expect to be Heidi Klum and look normal after a month. I have actually lost a lot of the weight. My clothes mostly fit, they just don't fit right. I have a pooch which I have never had before...breastfeeding has made parts shift...and my skin is definitely not glowing (maybe it is the lack of the pregnancy glow). Too add insult to injury, I have developed carpal tunnel and an ankle sprain that prevents working out.

I feel like the hormones are leaving my body and making me feel "normal," but who the heck knows what normal is anymore.

So here is my resolution for the last year of my 20s. To come to a balance of diet and exercise that looks "effortless," esp to Cdubs. I don't want her to grow up with me obsessed with having to fix myself and I don't want to pass onto her my self-critical nature.

Of course, how critical can I be, sitting in my hotel bathroom (because Cdubs is sleeping in the main room), drinking a Zlatý Bažant beer with Kdubs and eating french fries from room service and some sort of Slovak dessert that may actually be goose liver pate.

Anyways, this is me saying...happy birthday self...you went through a hell of a lot this past year and you made it...congrats. Now buck up and let's blow #29 out of the water.

8 comments:

amanda said...

happy, happy birthday friend :)

Jessi said...

Happy Birthday!!!

The Mrs. said...

happy birthday! May 29 be ah-mazing!

Huckaby Fam said...

Happy birthday! Celebrating my 30th birthday 4 months after Judah's birth was rough. I am looking forward to celebrating 31 without a mummy tummy, leaky boobs, and gigantic bags under my eyes! A year makes a world of difference.

Cita Online said...

You look gorgeous, fyi.
And feliz cumpleaños :-)

The Mrs. said...

i realized I lost your email. damn. can you email me with it? I have a question for you about the button you so generously did for me last year. I was hoping to resurrected for my side bar but I can't find the link back code. Would it be horribly difficult to make a new code? If yes then disregard, Your probably going to internet avoid me now arent you. double damn. : )

Erin said...

So I totally missed this post. Happy birthday, almost a month late! :) I will be 28 in a week from today...

Erin said...

Oh and for the record...I totally have TERRIBLE baby bangs going on and I am joining weight watchers tomorrow to try and look like I didnt just have a baby, since you know I have an almost 10mth old...